Bennett’s worldview and understanding of race has been intensified by experiences like these. Wasting few phrases and fewer feelings on this memoir (written with Dave Zirin, sports activities editor of The Nation), he begins by inspecting the brutal realities of each collegiate soccer.
The former Texas A&M Aggie contains poignant descriptions of his undergraduate years, noting that racism was on the heart of his faculty expertise. He additionally explains how post-traumatic stress dysfunction triggered in highschool and faculty can comply with athletes lengthy after the stadium crowds cease roaring. As an Aggie, Bennett explains, he was “half god, half property,” topic to so many restrictions that he was socked with a one-game suspension for leaving campus to attend his 2-year-old daughter’s birthday celebration. Bennett nonetheless resents going undrafted in 2009, the outcome, he believes, of his incapacity to reside by the recommendation given to athletes: “Stick to sports.”
Asking the N.F.L. “to lead on social issues sometimes seems like asking a dog to meow,” he remarks early on. But he’s additionally discovered soccer’s brotherhood invaluable, forming bonds along with his former coach Pete Carroll, in addition to Russell Wilson, Marshawn Lynch, Cliff Avril, Justin Britt, Albert Haynesworth and the late Cortez Kennedy. At the identical time, the bodily toll soccer has taken isn’t an inheritance he needs to move alongside. If he have been to have a son, Bennett says, he wouldn’t let him take up soccer. The concern of dying whereas taking part in could be very actual, one thing Bennett carries onto the sphere every Sunday — not essentially as a result of he’s afraid of dying however as a result of he’s conscious of the crater such a loss would depart within the lives of his three daughters and his spouse, Pele, whom he credit with serving to type his compassionate worldview.
Activism is essential to Bennett. It’s why he’s concerned in eliminating meals deserts in black communities. It’s why the dying of Charleena Lyles, shot by the Seattle police after she referred to as to report an tried housebreaking, tied him to the Black Lives Matter motion. It’s why he’s uncomfortable merely calling himself a feminist, deciding to behave on his beliefs by serving to present science, know-how, engineering and math applications to younger girls of coloration. It’s why he’s adamant about taking inspiration from the June 1967 assembly of professional athlete social activists that’s come to be often known as the Ali Summit. And it’s why Colin Kaepernick, nonetheless in exile from the N.F.L., has his lifelong assist. The dialog Kaepernick’s actions helped ignite, Bennett believes, was extra helpful than any of his personal paychecks.
That dialog — illuminating systemic racism — is a very powerful “thing” that makes white individuals uncomfortable, as his title has it. An admirer of Malcolm X, Angela Davis, Muhammad Ali and plenty of others, Bennett is an agent of change. Faced with apathy from white athletes and followers, he urges them to take motion. “Don’t feel guilty,” he writes. “Do something to make it better. Help us heal by standing — or sitting — alongside us.”
By the conclusion of his e-book, Bennett has delved into all of the hot-button points his title suggests. “I’ll be a football player for just a few more years,” he factors out, “but I’ll be black forever. When I’m driving with my family down the street in a nice car in a nice neighborhood and the police see us, they don’t see Michael Bennett the college graduate, the husband or the loving father. … They immediately see a black man who could possibly be dangerous.”